Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Or should I say ex bff? Its hard to face the fact that we aren't what we used to be. Eight grade marked the starting point of our freindship. Never thought 6yrs later would be the end. Sure we fell apart sometimes or shared interest in different things, but we always knew our place in eachothers lives (or so I thought). An anonymous informant told me that this would happen, but I chose not to believe that you were capable of destryoying our friendship. So now I feel like a complete jacka**. My imformant was right. As honest and open as I am, I would never give people the satisfaction of telling them what you did. But you know. You kno the f***ed UP decisions you chose to make. You know that sayin, "freinds come and go?" Well let's just say I never thought that would apply to us. Im actually embarassed at the situation. I was so confident in our friendship, that I often laughed at the other friendships you built, thinking that they would never compare to ours. And now the tables have been turned. Im the joke now. I'll admitt, it was saddening at first and I questioned myself, wondering if it was me.. was I not a good listener, was I boring or too judgemental?? But after a while I realized that Im not the one to blame, I did my part. I didnt choose this, you did! So with that being said, Im not mad... Im mad as HELL! But I'll surpass this.
ure ex-bestfriend : )
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Before I began to share my thoughts on homosexuality, I would like to start off by stating that, I am 126% heterosexual! And there's nothing I enjoy more than the sight of a bare chested, masculine hard PENIS man! To those of you who are homosexual, I apologize for having NO interest in your choice of lifestyle. However, I am "pro" homosexuality and I support all endaveours reagarding its present and future battles against the "anti-gay bashers and biased haters!" I am probably one of the most non judgemental person one will ever come across. I figured: Who am I to cast judgment upon someone when I have my own share of f***ed UP values and morals?! Not to mention that I've broken 8 out of 10 of God's Ten Commandments? I am not validated to look at homosexuality as wrong or repugnant, nor do I feel the need to bash it just because I choose to live differently. I support the gay community because few people seem to realize that they are regular people who share the same got damn planet as the heterosexual community. And sooo that cliche' question still remains: Why should it matter who a person chooses to love or share interest in? Everybody wants to be happy and fufilled right? And if that includes licking or sucking the same sex vagina or cock, then WTF! I estimate that about 70% of the world's population are not realist. Which leaves only 30% (including me) to do all the rationalizing. And this would entail, coming to the realization that we dont live in a f***ing "Utopia" world full of sunshine and rose pedals! We live in a overpopulated, diverse, socially biased and screwed UP world where there are over 10,000 different religions and over a billion different perceptions. How in the hell do people expect others to always agree with their way of thinking and living? Its a simple question really. Its just something people don't fully take into consideration before judging someone elses personal preference. I don't expect everyone to support the gay community and I understand that there are some dickHEADED homophobics that thinks that getting too close to a homosexual person will ultimatley spread a non curable "gay" disease causing everyone to be "gay", that will soon become a pandemic around the world and then everyone will go to hell!!!!! Oh nooo!!! Hahahahahaha!! And so the ending goes as such: I welcome gays with open arms and I encourage them to dismiss the negativity and indulge in HOT sex.... with the opposite sex!... Just like these guys down here!
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
So when it comes to sex, a lot of people are secretive and/or awkward about conversing about it. But why? Sex isn't something that a person should feel embarassed about. Its a natural and common form of bodily communication between two people (or more, lol). And it seems as if oral sex is an even more secretive and oblivious topic than sex! Giving or recieving oral sex is very natural and probably even more common than sex. But so many people choose not to discuss it, Im assuming beacause of its nature and its known stereotypical standards that comes along with admitting that you do it (i.e people would think you're a whore). But people would'nt have to worry about others judging them, if they surrounded themselves with "mature" and excepting peers who fully understands the fundamentals and noramlity of oral sex. I feel like its something that people should be able to laugh about, share and relate to, whether it be about oral sex, tpes of positions or just neighborly advice. Sex in general is a beautiful give and take body stimulation that everyone should partake in (now or after marriage, lol). Nevertheless, Im not sayin that a person should be too open, and outrageously blurt out that they give head! Lol however, I do think that people should lighten UP with the whole sex thing. I strongly suggest that people wake UP and realize that its 2009! And after reading this blog, Im sure people will gather their own "personal" opinions and perceptions about me, assuming that I suck cock or that Im too in touch with my sex life, lol. Can someone ask me if I care???? =)
Friday, July 3, 2009
Im really a good girl. And more than anybody you know that. I know I've been enjoying the hype a litle too much and exploring too many unGodly surfaces. Fornication, drinking, lying and disobedience, I mean the list goes on! I don't even know how to begin to say Im sorry. And I wonder why my life is so screwed up sometimes, and then I look back at my careless ways and shake my head in ownership. This letter is to you, confessing and asking for forgiveness. Now I know this isn't much, but in due time I promise to pay my debt in full! I used to take the time to thank you for every inch of my well being and fortunes. But now I barely acknowledge your existence. God I hope that you continue to grant me serenity and life, even in my ungrateful state. I know you're probably thinking that Im doing all this just because you know Im in desperate need of financial help, but thats not "entirely" true. I just thought that I should publicly put myself out there for the world and "you" to see that Im not just some uncontrollable tyrant or miscreant who dosen't appreciate her creator.
Because that is false. But you are God, so Im sure you already know this -smile-. So, I don't wanna take up all your time, I know you're a busy man. I jus wanted to show you some love, and ask for your forgiveness now... and in the future.
Your daughter :)
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